FUCK..
i flunk my paper today....
i messed it up..

totally stressed up..
Xue Lian can see it..
one, the laughing me..
then, the serious me.. the tense me..

being the first time, i'm so tense up.. so panic.. for a test..
panic.. ..
i'm..........just so panic.. ..
ABCosting i studied it.. but why can't i do it??

even thought of running away..
but wat has to be done.. needs to be done..
Gef thought me this.. and i remember by heart..

wat happen??
i dun knw.. i think i jux feel like hiding..
hide in a place..
probably disappear in thin air if i could..
so nobdy can find me..
there's no HO MEI LING in this world..
there's no difference if i'm around though..
*Many would hv raise both hands to agree on this* i can name a few if u want me to..

i hate CMA..
i dun like da teacher ....
who understands..???
nobody..!!
even u dun.... u dun understand....
think only shalini and myself knws..

i knw i have been pretty emo these few days..
been super lousy these few days..
not da strong me these few days..
but jux let me be..
the strong needs to rest too..
if u get to see the weak me.. dun talk.. dun ask..
jux hv to borrow me your shoulders..
that will do..

and this stupid 88.3FM..
playing emo songs now.. idoit..